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I saw my long-time-crush yesterday (he’s not my crush anymore, FYI so don’t get any ideas) when my friends and I decided to invite his friends to our morning picnic. When we were in high school we used to do it a lot and after three years, it’s the first time we’ve been together again. I really do wish more of our friends came, though.

Anyway… While I was walking towards our destined spot, I was making up plenty of scenarios in mind. I was that nervous to see him again after years of unrequited crushing.

And then I saw him.

I cannot really define how I felt back then but one thing’s for sure… the “unrequited crush” feeling is not there anymore. I did not swoon when he smiled or stammered when he talked to me.

It’s a relief that I never told him how I feel. Because I do not want to lose the friendship we established in high school only because of my feelings. It was a big deal back then. But that was then and this is now.

Now it’s time to truly move on.

Allegiant

So… Allegiant is out today. I am so excited to read it but I’m going to reread the first two books first but I feel like I want to read it on paperback and not on my device so I’m going to wait until December to read it. Bummer for me because I’ll only get money in December. That’s a long wait so… I’m going to be absent on a lot of my SNS especially tumblr because it’s going to contain a lot of spoilers for me.

I’m giddy with excitement. December should come already!

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We’re not equals. You shouldn’t have pushed me like that. I deserved your respect but you treated me differently. I let it pass before but this is the final straw.

We’re not equals. I wanted your respect. You did not give me that. Now you do not get the same from me.